cyborghyena

I am also open to coloring and inking comics, or creature pencils- if such a thing still exists. If anyone is interested, please send me a Note. I would preferably like to do this for reasonable compensation, but that can be discussed later, right now I could use the work.

I'm not interested in making anything erotic, just to make that clear.

Hi! Hello. I know it's been a long time, and perhaps a bit random to break a long silence with something removed from whats' happened in all this time or what I'm working on, but I guess I was needing something to break the silence with, even if it's just the silence with myself at this rate.

I already considered myself on an isolated bitchy branch of the Halo fanbase that formed when 343 took over and made their changes, at first it was retcons and the direction that bothered me, but you mature as you get older, and I was happy to have the older games with their stories intact and apart from the new stuff..... annnnd that changed too. I guess I just try not to think about it too much, I've shifted attention purposefully elsewhere. Infinite is good, and if the campaign gets expanded I'll play it more.

All that being said, it's fuckin' wild to see the fanbase seriously arguing over if the show is good and accurate... Like, what kind of particle accelerator brain must you have to find EITHER of those things in the Halo(tm) show in the first place makes me feel like I'm lost in a forest of intellectuals. Mmmhmmm.

Anyways..

I found a sort of comfort in coming to the understanding that the Halo I like is completely different to the one the majority of the 'base like, and the distinction helps to not feel as disappointed. Now, I'm not saying that because I'm an entitled prick (I could be), I'm saying that as one who would -ideally- be the target audience (I'm not, as it turns out). I feel bad about the idea of filling Paramounts' coffers in any way to watch this, because it just encourages really bad adaptations and lazy writing in the long run, but this fuckin' show is a meme factory. Just about every episode has something memorable in it, and it's always hilarious for reasons it really shouldn't be. Just the other day, I had the finale fucking spoiled IN MEME FORM. My mind would've been shattered if it wasn't spoiled for me, guaranteed. That I live in a timeline where my mind wasn't broken by (SPOILERS!!!!!) Masta Queef plowing plasma nails, no helmet (SPOILERS OVER!!!) is surely proof I am meant for grander things in this life. Grander places than Planet: Reach, Reach City.

I'm trying to become more consistent with my presence online, outside of watching videos between breaks on my projects and reducing hapless weaklings to atoms for being objectively foolish. That stuff. Hope to be back again soon, smash dat like button and subscribe it really...r e a l l y... helps guys...don' forget to buy G'fuul with da code "Toober" and get 2% offff

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Or how I learned I was in a Markiplier video

Been kinda living under a rock for the last few years, planning my big debut in 2020...HAHAHA...(that did not happen), if I were to explain the exact reasons for not hanging around to chat I think I would make everyone sad and sickened, perhaps with a little disbelief thrown in there, you may ask at your own peril, but I will not put it here, because I actually bring surprisingly (perhaps equally unbelievable) good tidings!

In case you did not know, back a few months ago I signed on to a new website called Artbreeder, here is my profile->https://www.artbreeder.com/cyborghyena

It's kinda like those Tensorflow attractions, equally as competent and amazing as it is horrifying for all the *right reasons. Artbreeder is unique with it's ability to create pretty damn convincing and near flawless art...you know that's not why I went there.

The furry section was nearly the most flawless, spook free zone on the website, so I naturally went about trying to fix that, and with success. Soon I will have demonic tendrils in all of the categories on Artbreeder, much more than it started with. That's been my life for the last few months, along with cooking music and trying to workout how to get bandcamp and soundcloud started properly.

I think it goes to show just HOW much I've been disconnected with the world, when my own Artbreeder images are front and center in a fucking MARKIPLIER video for a month and I didn't even know about it, not once, but all throughout this video.

TL;DR: I'm in a Markiplier video multiple times and didn't know until a month later. Said video has 2 million views, I don't even know what to say. I'm happy to be the person to make a gross picture, that truly makes me feel happy.

So much has changed since I was last here, but I guess that's to be expected when you don't come back for nearly two years, and weren't much better before then. If any of my old pals happens by, I'd like to say sorry for imposing my problems on you during my late teens.

I am a little behind when it comes to properly managing feelings, and I remember hyperfocusing on people and feeling dependant on their words. That's not an easy thing to admit to, but I guess I knew I had to own up to it. It had more to do with the instability I was facing and the inability to give myself emotional support, and strangely enough, it was being bombarded nonstop by horrible real shit that sorted my whiney ass for the time being.

So much shit. John K being exposed really fucked me over for a long time. I had watched all the dvd commentaries, I used to read his blog articles on character design, and learned about Ralph Bakshi's work through him. I'm not the type to continue on liking somebody's work after something like that happens, especially when they are tied so heavily in to it, it's kinda inseparable. I don't know how else to describe it, but when you learn a great deal from someone who turns out to be like that, it makes you feel dirty. I know we live in a world where

people aren't willing to believe this happens, but yes I watched and read many sources about this, I didn't want to believe it. I guess it's an important lesson not to have blind faith in people you like just because you like them. I don't fucking know.

But I guess, after awhile I grew bitter about everything that was happening to me, but I had to let it the fuck go. Disappointment and grief do not go anywhere, they sit and become putrid, until that spreads to everything you say and do.

What can I say? I'm a fish out of water, politics bore me and I'm not for anyone 99% of the time because I hate all of them (Bernie is the only exception, but not the rule) unconditionally. So when I see people I know drop their integrity to kiss ass for someone so far away from their lives, no matter how much they pretend otherwise, it makes me a *^little^* sick. And why shouldn't I be? The difference between this president and the last was that people I knew weren't reciting neonazi retoric at me, my doctor wouldn't have ripped stitches violently out of my feet because he was *^sure^* that I didn't have a job (he said it to my face, just after having a heated argument with a pregnant woman over fake news), my uncle wouldn't have called my grandmother mentally ill (post recent heart attack) on thanksgiving night on facebook, and lastly my little brother's school wouldn't have been threatened three times and shut down once by kids with guns. Does that fucking count? Don't answer that.

My life is impacted, congratulations. I'm so glad these things are going to be used as petty counterweights in the upcoming election, I could really burst.

I suppose that last bit doesn't support that whole 'letting go' statement I made earlier, but I do mean it. I'm trying to work around the negativity without giving to it, using Ecosia for example, and giving constructive criticism and support to youtubers every now and then, can't let someone feel recklessly above improvement, eh?

Oh yeah, I never stopped making art. I've been this whole time. I might upload some finished things, but my main goal is to get a SoundCloud up and running, and to release a Silent Hill fan soundtrack to that niche community, and from there build up an audience for my own work.

Shout out to Pet my head https://www.youtube.com/user/renanddookie2094/videos

Sorry I didn't say much of anything, but I really dig your animation style.

And CorruptedIdeal, the Star Wars Battlefront games for the original Xbox have been fucking fantastic, so has Episode 1 Racer!